Tempting Fate: Page 2

True Journal, Tuesday, Fall Year 20

Lisa had been spending time alone. Once the kids were in bed, she could be found staring aimlessly at the waves. I shouldn’t have kissed her. I shouldn’t have done it… but really, I don’t regret it.


Lisa was hesitant to go on her vacation. I had booked this vacation for her weeks in advance. I told her she should go. I’m paying for it, she may as well enjoy it. She gave me a smile and thanked me. Thanked me? She should be angry with me, but instead she thanked me.


She had wanted to go camping with some friends. All I paid for was her round trip ticket, she said she would live off the land… fishing and sleeping in a tent. I hoped she has a good time and unwinds.


Why would someone sleep in a tent, outdoors rather than in a bed, in a hotel? I don’t get this lure of nature… living on the beach is as close to nature as this guy wants to get. Until…


Manager’s resort… I jumped at it. Mountains? I’m so there. Okay ya it’s a big area, but I vaguely knew the campground she was booked at… I had the name, it was something to go by.
They have wifi, they have all the modern conveniences, why else would a software company go up there for a meeting of the minds. Still, I left my cell at home, I didn’t want to be bothered while I was up there. I had a mission, I was going to find her. I was going to convince her to come home and stay with me.
I had sent word to the campground, gave a message to forward to her. The name of the lodge, the number and when I would be arriving. The girl said she would give her the message if she saw her. If?


When I checked in the concierge said I had a visitor… my hand froze mid-signature and I found myself holding my breath… when I inquired as to where this visitor was he nodded behind me.


He asked if the lady would be staying with me… I was honest, told him I didn’t know and would have to get back to him on that.


She sat there quietly until I noticed her. I wanted to throw her down on that couch and take her right there. Naturally I refrained, but just barely… she looked so nervous and told the man she would not be staying.


I managed to convince her to stay for dinner. She thought it would be a nice break from catching and her grilling own. I guess she was serious about this ‘roughing it’. We talked for hours. How sorry she felt for coming between Allyn and me. For inadvertently rejecting my son, had she known how he felt, she would have been more careful with him and how she would have had to let him down… after all he was just a boy… a very sweet and handsome boy… but not the man she was in love with… in love… she loves me… she burst in to tears at that point and nothing I could say would convince her to stay.


I thought long and hard in that sauna. Allyn and I had been on the rocks for some time. I was too blind to see a lot of things. She fought with me often, the contraption addiction was just another cry for help, her constant want for children to fill a void… it all adds up… but how do I just leave the mother of my children… how do I convince the woman that I love to stay and help me work this out? Is it fair of me to ask this of her? I didn’t have the answers, but I had to ask. I had to take the chance.


Lisa didn’t come back the next day, so I went to her. Or at least I went to the campgrounds. It’s a pretty big place, lots of tents and a good size lake. It was gorgeous. I can see why she likes it out here… I still prefer the room service.

Oh ya, I am totally getting one of these for home. I fell in love with that hammock… it was about that time when I heard a small gasp… or so I thought… by the time I got up out of that thing… there was no one there.


It was getting cold fast and it was getting late… I had to take a shuttle back to town to my lodge for a meeting… that’s when I saw her…


I didn’t know what to do… comfort her… leave her be? I love her, so I did what any man should do…


I held her and let her cry…


Then she did what I feared… she gently kissed my cheek and sent me away… I waited till it got dark and took the very last shuttle back in to their sleepy little town… alone and rejected.
The next day I had meetings all day. It wasn’t until late afternoon that I had a moment to even think about… anything… about… Lisa… about… losing her…


I got a call from the front desk… a visitor… I found my legs were like lead as I walked to the front office. When I looked in to her eyes, those deep baby blues, I just took her hand and walked right back to my room.


Her body felt so right, everything was coming together. I could poke a hole through my jeans I was so ready for her, I wanted to kiss every inch of her body… I could almost taste her…
And she put on the brakes… again… seriously… blue balls, man… women have no idea what they do to us. I had to go to the bathroom, it was so bad…


We spent hours dancing… talking… connecting… talking about our hopes, our dreams, what we each wanted for our future… I realized then that Allyn and I jumped in to our relationship much too fast… it was hot and heavy and sex non-stop… it was damn good… but all physical. And as much as I wanted to boop Lisa at that moment, it was interesting to just talk to her. She’s a very intelligent woman.


That’s not to say that later I didn’t tap that sweet ass… again and again and…

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